In two weeks so much has changed. I’m moving FASTER, which isn’t my desire at the time of year when my body and Mother Nature are calling to slow down.
Perhaps I’ve been sluggish for too long – afraid of moving forward and frustrated with the status quo, that the need for more action has suddenly erupted?
Over the past few months I’ve been wondering what precisely must happen to heal my relationship with money and the little voice in my heart kept saying, “earn it.” Well, duh. I knew that already, didn’t I?
I couldn’t wrap my HEAD around the fact that somehow The Universe wasn’t allowingme to EARN money on MY terms. I can be a bit bossy, even with the Universe and I was getting myself tied up in knots about this fact. While I had a deep and abiding FAITH that everything was exactly as it should be and that my life is full of love and laughter, I was still a teeny, tiny bit resentful.
No wonder I’d been dreaming about all kinds of childhood situations — I was resentful then too. I have to admit that when I don’t get my way, when I want it, how I want it — well, I’m a bit of a — um. brat.
Brattiness was getting the best of me when an amazing opportunity showed up — my best friend’s office manager had to be let go. A litle voice inside said, “You’d be GREAT at this…this is actually why you two met 5 years ago.”
I said, “Yeah, but we’re friends and I don’t want to ruin the friendship. Besides, she works all the time….that wouldn’t be so much fun.”
(apparently my need for including fun in my life had taken over the practical realities of life…it seems I was fighting for a cause (fun) at the expense of my need for success on my own terms – not suprising given issues in my hands, but still, I hate it when it shows up in bright lights like this.)
So, I asked my angels using a process I learned from my dear friend Melissa Kitto (audio is on her site) and they agreed – in fact they insisted it was a no-brainer.
Still, I hesitated. After all, I’d determined I was going to focus all my energy on reading hands non-stop – and writing. Yeah, that was the ticket, wasn’t it?
Thankfully, my friend must have been getting the same nudges and rather than ignore them (which isn’t her style) she put the offer out there – “I’m in a bind and could use your help,” and the deal was done.
So, for the last two weeks I’ve been having a blast working my butt off helping her continue to grow her amazing company – enhancing the lifestyles of people who truly appreciate her services. Every day is different and I’m definitely aware at the end of a long work day that I’ve made a contribution – that my work has accomplished something.
However, my original intent was to work til 5 with her, and then come home and work on writing til 7:30 each night, isn’t as easy as planned. Maybe it’s because of holidays but the work schedule and after work schedule has been unpredictable and I’m finding myself playing catch up every night.
I’m thankful for the new perspective and the new sense of self that has come as a result of this new gig. Between now and Christmas I do have a half-dozen private readings scheduled and I have room for more. Reading hands is what gives me the deepedst sense of fulfilment and my sense is that this new situation is going to contribute to that goal in some way — just waiting to see precisely how it will work out.
I know I’m not supposed to worry about how…but if you’ve got ideas, I’m happy to hear them.