Sharing an afternoon visit over coffee at the local shop, my friend Bev and I were chatting about life and work.
“I know what I’m supposed to do with my life and I have a good idea how to start a business based on it, BUT I can’t give up my job and my part-time job in this economy.” Bev opened another package of sugar and stirred vigorously.
I dunked my tea bag in rhythm with my nodding head. “Sounds frustrating,” I added.
Bev looked straight across the table at me, green eyes shining and said, “I just admire the heck out of you, you just put yourself right out there and go for it.”
I stopped dunking my tea bag and let out a gulp/laugh. My heart beat louder in my chest and I hesitated for only a short beat before I blurted out, “But I’m scared too.”
The conversation stopped as she looked into her coffee and thought about what I’d just said.
“Really? You’re scared? You never look scared, you’re my role model.” Bev replied.
I’ve been reflecting on that conversation for the last few days and decided that it’s time I come clean and say out loud that I get scared too. I don’t live in fear, but I’m scared a great deal of the time.
In my lexicon “fear” and “scared” mean different things – fear is something paralyzing, fear is something I feel when I’m stuck in a mystery and I don’t have a clue about a situation, thing or possible outcome. Fear is when I’m in a fog and I can’t find my way out. Scared is when I question myself. Scared is when I create my own ego-based pitfalls.
Here are just a handful of things that scare me on regular basis:
* Not being able to pay the mortgage;
* Letting someone down;
* Alienating people;
* Being the brunt of jokes;
* Not living up to my own expectations;
* Disappointing someone;
* Missing a deadline;
* Dead air
In my hand I have Warrior stars and several deeply etched warrior lines. This is the gift of exceptional courage. At first I thought this meant courage to defend the downtrodden and fight for a cause. Now I know that the exceptional courage we have is meant for us.
That means I find myself using my courage every day to fight for me. It’s as though my potential is pitted against my ‘rational’ side and I have to fight for my Divine Life each day.
The rational side wants me to stop helping people and get “real.” It wants me to believe in the layoffs and the bailouts and the nightly news. It wants me to get a “real” job and find some financial footing instead of living on my own terms.
My potential wants me to live a loftier vision, to trust in the experience and to believe in myself and my perception of the world. It wants me to set the bar for myself ever higher and to acknowledge feeling scared – but not let it stop me.
As a hand analyst, my role is to translate your divine purpose ~~ to allow you to believe in your own potential. As an entrepreneur and a coach, my role is to guide you to the systems and processes that allow you to step into your potential in a practical and concrete way. It’s work I love to do and I take my roles very seriously. To be honest, that’s what helps me hold onto the courage and step through the scared – walking my talk and being there.
Trust me, if I can do it, you can too! I don’t have any more special powers than you do – but what we have is more than enough to live our purpose, create prosperity and embrace the changes we can make in the world!
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