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Twofer Monday

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Yesterday was Michael’s birthday — so I took a day semi-off from the computer.  Today’s post is actually a combination of 12/12 and 12/13 prompts from #reverb10.

December 12 – Body Integration This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)


Oddly, the days I felt most integrated with my body were the two times I ended up needing medical attention.  Really.  Because each time there was a specific, very personal message to me, about my spiritual, medical and intellectual state that I had been, shall we say, avoiding.  Ignoring.  Wishing weren’t true.

The first time – the middle zone of my middle finger on my dominant hand was slashed in a freak Pampered Chef accident.  (it was a casserole dish, of their stoneware stuff  Apparently it had a hairline crack.  And 3/4 of it fell out of my hand.  Leaving me with 1/3 of the casserole thingy and eventually 6 stitches).

You know the Universal wisdom rocks — because if you want to really get a hand analyst’s attention — you know — destroy her hand.

It’s not that I hadn’t been aware of my issues around money, value and taking action to make them happen – it’s just that I thought if I sat on my arse and meditated and Secreted and BELIEVED then the money would appear.  Not likely.  After hemorrhaging the finger then the money process began to appear.  (and you know, I just wrote all this and realized that this accident happened in 2009, but clearly, I’m finally putting it to bed in 2010 – as I’ve now regained most of the feeling my finger).

The second time? in the Spring I could. not. move.  Every step was pain in my abdomen and girl parts.  This is NOT fun.  However, for various and sundry reasons I just thought this was part of “cramps” and I had to “suck it up” so as not to be a “sissified gal.”  I’ll save you the gory details (as if what I’ve shared isn’t gory enough) but suffice it to say there was a TON of 2nd Chakra and Martyr issues tied up there.

In both cases I’ve been more connected to my body – because of the beautiful and amazing tool, vessel and ship it is to get me where I am meant to go on my journey!

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December 13 – Action When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

Glad you asked.  My next step, clearing out all the people and potential clients who are not my best people (as Catherine Caine so elegantly describes it).

I’m done working with  or trying to woo people who are  not willing to take action.  The first sign of this?  People who want all kinds of information about hand analysis and the work I do, blowing smoke up my keester with things like “I’m totally going to sign up for this” but then aren’t willing to commit to a date or payment plan.  Or worse, they never return their prints.

Sure they’re afraid.  That’s their stuff.

And I’ve been really, too NICE in the “I totally get it” department.

I want people who are over-the-moon ready to work on getting where they want to go.

That’s not to say that I’ll be rude, disdainful or what have you with peeps I meet, but it just means, I’m not spending energy on people who are not ready. (And this isn’t about me judging people’s budgets, when you’re ready for something you really, really want, you find money — whether it’s for a class, a meal, a good bottle of vino or anything else your heart desires.  If learning your purpose and how to put it to work for you in a meaningful way isn’t a burning desire, I can’t help you.)

and I can’t help you if already know everything.  If you’ve already done “all the inner work” but just want to test the waters to see what I know, or what I do, or how you can do what I do without any introspective work or investment on  your part, I’m not your gal.

That’s the next step.

(Wow, that seems a bit harsh, but really, I’ve been addled long enough by people taking my time and energy that aren’t really willing to do the work and attribute value to my work.  I love hands.  I know what I do is crazy amazing out of the ballpark amazing and valuable and I want to work with people who get that. and only them.)

First 5K in 11 years

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I’m proud to say that today I finished my first 5K race in more than 11 years. To be honest, I’ve never much liked running but I used to do it to keep in shape and boost my metabolism enough to eat whatever I wanted. There was also a phase that kept me running because I had a crush on the guy who was my running partner. When that relationship went south, so did the desire to get out of bed and strap on the running shoes.

Lately, I’ve been listening to my friends talk about their Saturday runs and their plans for marathons, half marathons and 10 milers. I recently found an old “bucket list” that had ‘Finish half-marathon by 45′ I decided to dust off the shoes and start doing something along the lines of running.

This 5k was both easier and scarier than I imagined it to be. It was scarier because I really hadn’t done any training (other than walking 5 miles a day with and without the dogs) and at the starting line I was surrounded by thousands of people that looked infinitely more bright-eyed than I did. It was easier because I took off any expectations other than finishing with my best effort.And I did.  I finished about 10 minutes faster than I had on New Years Day 11 years ago and I could walk afterward. 

Lately I’ve been avoiding challenging myself in any way other than work – but I’m realizing that the more I build my confidence in all areas – the more I learn I can trust myself, my body and my commitments to myself.

Uncommon Gifts from the Common Cold

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My birthday was delightful.  It was as though a little light flew on and >Poof!< I was aware of the bliss of my life.

I’m not living with my head under a rock, nor am I a PollyAnna, but for some reason my birthday hurtles me into a sensation of recognition of all that has gone before – primarily the previous 365 days, but in a greater sense it seems to call in vague visions of many lifetimes as well.

This year, one of the big gifts I received was the reminder that no matter what I may think  ~ I’m not really in control. And that the sooner I let-go and let the Universe take it’s course, the more joyous my life is!

You see, for at least two months I’ve been feeling a bit smug, believing that I had the magic bullet to stave off a cold.  My belief was that I had conquered the little bug and that I would make it through the entire winter without catching a cold.  Every time I felt a bit of a sniffle,  I ran for my Zicam , Airborne, Yogi Teas, and Neti Pot then I’d add some extra sleep, extra yoga and more organic veggies to the diet and I’d somehow skate past the dreaded cold.  (All of these may not be your choice – and I don’t get any kick-backs for telling you about them, they are simply my cold-zappers of choice).

Twice this winter I dreamed that I had a cold and sore throat and woke up feeling fine — as though my sleeping self were living with the effects of the seasonal bogeyman so that I could allow my waking self to go on feeling smug.

However.

On my birthday, I awoke feeling congested, achy and with a low grade fever ~ which did explain my moodiness of the night before — yet I was a bit disappointed.  I’d worked so hard to be in control of my body and avoid the seasonal cold — HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!

Here’s the good part – once I accepted that I had a cold, that I was human and that a cold is the body’s way of clearing out old ‘stuff’ that no longer serves the entire organism I chose to see it as a gift.  I’ve long said that I have the most comical spirit guides and angels watching over me – and this was, in my opinion, just part of their big gift to me. 

The gifts hiding in my cold are:

  • recognition that I’m simply the conduit;
  • clearing of old and no longer useful ideas, processes and habits;
  • release of my ego and smugness;
  • self-compassion and slowing down;
  • deeper understanding of the body as a representation of the spirit.

While I’m glad to have the gift, I’m still doing all that I can to hurry it along!  I even took my first day off in more than a year on Monday and it felt great to sit on the couch, drink tea and watch a month’s worth of  DVR’d Oprah episodes!

The slowing down of my body has allowed my mind to get creative and playful.  As a result I’m putting together some new classes, collaborations and articles for the coming months in order to serve bigger, brighter and more effectively! 

What gifts can you find in a common occurrence?