Ever have a run-in with someone that leaves you feeling cranky and unsettled?
That happened to me in the hospital.
For the most part everyone I dealt with was not only professional, but really likable. The nurses and techs knew that they were stellar at their jobs and they performed professionally and with a great attitude. I trusted them all implicitly and the entire stay was working it’s magic of healing.
Then, Louise (not her real name) arrived and rocked my boat.
Louise was one of the techs in charge of taking my vitals and dealing with other things like changing my IV. Louise entered my room on full throttle – asking questions about the books I had in front of me, wanting to know who all the people were who were visiting and generally telling me all about her plans to create various businesses for herself.
It was exhausting and a true energy suck.
I have no doubt that Louise is a great human and that she meant well. I was sick and frankly not in the mood for working to make her feel at ease. (In an earlier meditation during my stay, I made some peace with the idea that trying to make everyone else comfortable had contributed to my illness.)
I did my best to keep up with her patter but mostly just nodded as she cuffed me for a blood pressure reading and stuck a thermometer under my tongue. My blood pressure was spiking. She kept talking, telling me all about blood pressure and all that she knew about blood pressure and then asking me about starting a business.
I was exhausted when she left.
Later that night she arrived, with a bucket of gauze, needles and tape and announced she was going to change my IV. (I’d asked my nurse earlier about switching it out).
I’ll save you the details, but this process did not go well.
I was in pain and I was irritated. I asked her to leave the IV as it was.
She left, frustrated.
I tried to sleep.
I was still irritated and angry about the whole situation.
I said a prayer asking for the peace I needed to release this situation. I sent light and love as I did my best to mentally cut the cord that had me wrapped up in the frustration.
Still, I couldn’t sleep. I just couldn’t seem to let it go.
This went on for about 40 minutes when it finally occurred to me that the frustration would remain until I tuned into the lesson I was meant to learn.
So I focused on learning.
What could this situation with Louise possibly have to offer me?
“It’s about standing in your power.” said my Higher Self.
It made perfect sense.
Up until that moment I had dealt with healers of all ilks who were not only competent but confident in their contribution to my healing. They knew their stuff and they didn’t expect me to question their competency. I trusted them implicitly to help me heal.
That’s what I’m supposed to do as a coach. Stand in my power, knowing the stuff and being confident that what I offer is not only of value, but healing for those who come to me.
Lately though, I’d been like Louise, unsure of what I was doing or why and it was affecting my relationships with potential clients. I wasn’t standing in my power, I was trying to entertain and WOW and one-up, and prove myself.
The lesson for me was that I know what I know and I know how powerful the work is. That it stands for itself as it flows through me and I don’t need to do anything other than be fully present and competent and compassionate to make a difference in someone’s life.
Once I captured that lesson, I did another cord-cutting meditation. Asking for peace for both Louise and myself and I let it go with light.
I slept easily after that and the next day when Louise was back on shift, things were much less tense.
Two really cool take aways came from that for me:
1) When there’s something you really are trying to release, but it won’t go away – go looking for the lesson
2) When you sign up to help others on their journey (spiritual, business, healing, etc.) do it confidently and from the place of love and joy. Stop worrying about proving yourself – it’s exhausting for everyone!